Awareness begins and suddenly you find yourself
Standing in chest deep dark, oh, so cold water,
That smells of things long dead.
You don’t know how you came to be here or why
Your mind struggles with the questions,
Is this all that there is?
Is this all that I am supposed to be?
Is this all that this life is meant to be?
Looking above your head you see
Something far away above you
Like a scene of the sun seen through a hazy sky
You know that you have to reach for it.
Gently reaching forward you encounter
Vertical stones stretching out to the sides and upwards above you.
You begin to reach upwards feeling with your hands
You feel cracks and finger holds.
Pulling yourself upwards a little you find toe holds for your feet
Reaching, pulling with your hands, pushing with your feet
You begin to move upwards inches at a time.
You slip down a few feet,
But you return to the struggle upwards.
Not noticing how high that you have come,
Only knowing that continuing need to climb upwards.
Not just hours or days.
Not just weeks or months,
but years, you keep moving,
you keep climbing.
You reach a place that feels like a shelf
not knowing that it is nighttime.
You stop and close your eyes to rest.
Little realizing that you are not lying down on a shelf
Something stirs you awake, a gentle breeze on your face,
your eyes open and you see
something that in all of your years in darkness
you have never dreamed possible before.
There a broken line at a distance
Parts of it sharp and pointed
Parts of it gently rounded shapes.
All of it outlined by a light gray and slight red coloring
Watching this scene as it changes
you see colors changing to sharp reds and pale yellows
You watch as the center of this scene
suddenly becomes a ball shaped bright yellow disc
illuminating the world around you.
You see for the first time, trees, hills, flowers.
You look above your head and the scene is stunning
There are the light blues of the sky,
broken by the shapes of white clouds that are outlined in shades of pink and gold.
Your awareness suddenly expands again and you
Begin to hear the sounds of bird songs
And the wind gently moving through the trees
You begin to smell the scents of trees and flowers
Now you begin to know why you had to climb up out of the darkness
You had to be able to see and live in the world of light and life
Some people are always going to live in the darkness they cannot see the way out
Some people are meant to climb up to the light.
The memories of where you were and where you are now stay with you.
The memories of the effort, the struggle, the hard work to reach this place,
are a large piece of who you have become as a human being.